Care, But Don’t Carry – A Letter to My Younger Self

Care, But Don’t Carry – A Letter to My Younger Self

My divine little one, I see that you are struggling with some relationships as you heal and shift into a more aligned and conscious human being. I know you dearly love these people, and you’ve spent most of your life cultivating, caring for and nurturing these relationships. It’s important to know, that as you shift, your relationships with loved ones also shift – some will climb along with you as their souls tune into your awakening, and others will not be ready.  It will be extremely challenging to persuade those that aren’t ready to follow your lead. I know you’re feeling guilt around moving away from these cherished loved ones.  But who are you really leaving if you continue to put yourself in the mix of their suffering and the heaviness of their energy? It’s not yours to carry.  As a wise teacher taught me, “Care, but don’t carry”.

Your only job is to offer compassion and send loving energy to these precious beings from wherever you are.  There is no distance too far to extend this gift upon them.  And you will always have the support you need to share your light with them.  Whenever you’re tired and your energy tank is low, close your eyes and imagine a sparkling crystal path lined with redbud trees, meandering lilac bushes and wandering morning glories.  Further imagine as you walk down this shiny path, you’ll be greeted by your guide, Hyperion Phil, who will lead you to the elemental kingdom. Continue to imagine as you step through a rainbow chakra merry-go-round where you’ll meet Charlene, the unicorn. Place your hand on her golden horn and let your entire being soak in her over-flowing fountain of light.  This source is infinitely available to you anytime, anywhere, from now to eternity.

Care But Don't Carry

If you find yourself falling back into carrying vs. caring, spirit will let you know via an endless array of signs.  As long as you remain present and aware of your body, your feelings and your surroundings – clues will be sent that you are giving away your energy, not holding your boundaries or absorbing emotions that aren’t yours. For example, you might find yourself crying for no reason.  Ask yourself – why am I crying?  Are these my tears?  It’s a part of the game called “Mine, not mine.”  As a highly sensitive child, feel into your second chakra, the place just below your belly button, and imagine closing it like a shutter or a flower bud.  If the tears stop as soon as you close it, those are not your tears.  This is true for any emotion you’re feeling.  It’s a good idea to always check in and confirm that you are only processing your own emotions.

Once you are back on track, set an intention for your loved ones to join you at any time during your travels to the higher realms of consciousness awareness.  Just hold out your hands as you spin around the sacred medicine wheel, journey across the four directions, connect with your star family and create an open invitation for all to join you.  Should they open their hearts to your unconditional love and surrender to their divinity, they will take your hand and receive passageway to the most magnificent magic carpet ride across the universe.  

What are you waiting for… join me in being a living and joyful prayer.



11:11 she goes to meet the taxi. 2:20 she boards her first flight. 8:10 she boards her second flight. 11:22 she lands. 12:12 she drives. 12:34 a four-legged angel jumps in her lap. 444 she’s the only car on the road. 1:08 she’s home.

Numbers are everywhere. Watches, clocks, phones, cars, road signs, addresses, airports, currency…the list goes on and on, so many numbers everywhere. They’re staring back at us even when we’re asleep…especially when we’re asleep…just waiting for the alarm to go off. Wake up, wake up. It’s time to wake up. They yell, they sing, they whisper…wake up my angel. The bus is coming, and you don’t want to be late for school. Oh, just this once…let me sleep. Let me sleep a little longer. I need just a few more minutes. I’m not sure if I’m ready to wake up yet. Why do I have to wake up? I look at the clock…oh no…I’ve overslept. Get up. Get up. It’s time to get up. OK I say. I’m up. I’m up. I’m up already. The race against time begins…

This was my life for so many years. Only seeing the one-dimensional view of numbers. Numbers as time with deadlines. Number as money that was running out. Numbers as goals that felt like obstacles. Numbers as constraining and never enough.

A few years ago, I woke up startled from a dream in the middle of the night. In my half-asleep state I looked at the glow of the clock. 2:22. What are the odds of waking up at this exact time I thought to myself. What does it mean? Does it mean anything? I think it does. I pray to the Divine – show me, show me what it means. So, I Googled it. What is Google if not the manifestation of the divine librarian. And there it was…the answer…there is indeed a divine language of numbers. The Greek philosopher Pythagoras taught that the entire universe is mathematically precise. Others call them angel numbers. In this universal language, 222 means “Keep the Faith. It’s a sign that you have planted your seeds, and now must keep tending to them even though you can’t yet see the seedlings.”

Today’s numbers are a constant reminder to be aware, stay in the flow, keep the faith in the divine order of infinite possibilities, trust, let go, ask for guidance, follow your intuition, your angels are with you, your prayers are being heard and answered. You are whole. You are one with the universe.