Looking out to the infinite horizon she covers mother earth in deep shades of blues, greens and turquoise reflecting the almighty father sun. She is the Goddess VaDah….a symphony of stillness, annihilation and everything in between. When she’s hungry she devours the shores climbing the rocks and cliffs with a wide open mouth like a snake feeding on its kill. Her energy moves in swirls of white pools, angry and aggressive above the surface then diving underneath with the grace of a ballerina forming patterns of hearts as she contracts and expands. She baths, feeds and shelters an ecosystem of life going back to the beginning of no beginning. She effortlessly cradles creatures weighing 200 tons and those as small 20 nanometers…she loves them all unconditionally.
An underworld rich with buried treasures, sunken ships and ancient ruins she offers endless exploration. Predators and prey play a game of hide and seek in her crevices. Without her there is no life…yet none are immortal. As calmly and peacefully as she co-exists among all of life…when provoked she devours entire civilizations as her infinite being rises hundreds of feet into the sky to consume whatever stands in her way. Her power marries with the gale-force winds and rain draining and sucking the dark forces into her belly. She gives generously only after abundantly consuming and receiving what’s required for herself.
My divine little one, I see that you are struggling with some relationships as you heal and shift into a more aligned and conscious human being. I know you dearly love these people, and you’ve spent most of your life cultivating, caring for and nurturing these relationships. It’s important to know, that as you shift, your relationships with loved ones also shift – some will climb along with you as their souls tune into your awakening, and others will not be ready. It will be extremely challenging to persuade those that aren’t ready to follow your lead. I know you’re feeling guilt around moving away from these cherished loved ones. But who are you really leaving if you continue to put yourself in the mix of their suffering and the heaviness of their energy? It’s not yours to carry. As a wise teacher taught me, “Care, but don’t carry”.
Your only job is to offer compassion and send loving energy to these precious beings from wherever you are. There is no distance too far to extend this gift upon them. And you will always have the support you need to share your light with them. Whenever you’re tired and your energy tank is low, close your eyes and imagine a sparkling crystal path lined with redbud trees, meandering lilac bushes and wandering morning glories. Further imagine as you walk down this shiny path, you’ll be greeted by your guide, Hyperion Phil, who will lead you to the elemental kingdom. Continue to imagine as you step through a rainbow chakra merry-go-round where you’ll meet Charlene, the unicorn. Place your hand on her golden horn and let your entire being soak in her over-flowing fountain of light. This source is infinitely available to you anytime, anywhere, from now to eternity.
If you find yourself falling back into carrying vs. caring, spirit will let you know via an endless array of signs. As long as you remain present and aware of your body, your feelings and your surroundings – clues will be sent that you are giving away your energy, not holding your boundaries or absorbing emotions that aren’t yours. For example, you might find yourself crying for no reason. Ask yourself – why am I crying? Are these my tears? It’s a part of the game called “Mine, not mine.” As a highly sensitive child, feel into your second chakra, the place just below your belly button, and imagine closing it like a shutter or a flower bud. If the tears stop as soon as you close it, those are not your tears. This is true for any emotion you’re feeling. It’s a good idea to always check in and confirm that you are only processing your own emotions.
Once you are back on track, set an intention for your loved ones to join you at any time during your travels to the higher realms of consciousness awareness. Just hold out your hands as you spin around the sacred medicine wheel, journey across the four directions, connect with your star family and create an open invitation for all to join you. Should they open their hearts to your unconditional love and surrender to their divinity, they will take your hand and receive passageway to the most magnificent magic carpet ride across the universe.
What are you waiting for… join me in being a living and joyful prayer.
I had the unique and rare opportunity to support my friend Lissa Rankin at Esalen this past May.
For me, it was the gift of a lifetime to teach and hold space at such a world-renowned place for healing. I had not been there since 2012 as a student. Returning after all these years, and especially at this time, felt so renewing and regenerative. The participants were engaged and fully committed to sharing and receiving all the weekend had to offer. Several were healthcare professionals who have been on the front line of COVID and a few were recovering from serious health issues. Lissa led us flawlessly through her teachings and the various exercises. I’m deeply honored and humbled by this experience to witness the vulnerability and dedication it takes for each one of us to show up for ourselves and each other.
As many of you know, I’ve been on my own healing journey and this year marks my 7th year anniversary of embarking on this powerful, painful, heart-wrenching and beautiful path of self-discovery.
It felt appropriate to be celebrating my hard work while supporting others in their journey. I felt the presence of the ancestors, and especially my maternal grandfather, guiding and supporting us throughout the weekend. We all felt safe and held.
Plus the gift of being on sacred land with ancient tree spirits, hundreds of native plants in full bloom and natural hot springs on the edge of a cliff overlooking the ocean on a full moon Spring Equinox weekend – absolute perfection. It’s a pinch me moment and I bow in reverence to the wonder and awe of it all.
When you hear the words plant medicine, what’s the first thing you think of? Is it herbal remedies that have been passed down for generations by our ancestors? Or is it connected to the mystical and visionary experiences associated with Ayahuasca, Magic Mushrooms, Peyote and other psychedelic inducing plants? For me, it’s been the latter, and I’m only now starting to share more openly about my experiences with sacred plant teachers for my own healing and personal transformation.
I was first introduced to this alternative world in early 2015 and have been on a journey of exploration ever since – learning everything possible about my human self and my soul self – beyond anything I could have ever imagined.
Plant medicines enlighten us with unique and rare experiences that provide insights and guidance for our soul’s journey on Earth. The information that comes through provides an expansive array of insights into who and why we’re here; however, they cannot “integrate” that information into our very beings – that we must do ourselves through thoughtful and practical interpretation of what we are shown in order to implement and activate the guidance for our best and highest good.
My intensive experience with these plant allies has provided me with the keys to my soul’s compass. These ancient teachers have revealed the mysteries of my soul’s journey across many lifetimes and gifted me with a map for navigating my current lifetime. Many of my journeys to the beyond were so magnificent that putting them into words can hardly do them justice. At the same time, I definitely had some horrifically painful travels that I wish I had been better prepared for prior to jumping into the deep end of this mystical pool.
As a result, one of the primary lessons I’ve learned is that integration is essential to incorporating these peak experiences into our everyday lives for real and lasting change. This invaluable process will make an impact for years to come. And for this reason, I’ve become deeply focused on my own integration as well as supporting others as an intuitive guide and coach.
I will share more in future posts about specific experiences as it becomes more comfortable for me to do so. In the meantime, if you’re feeling the urge to explore this world for your own healing and evolution process, I’d like to invite you to an open access online event – The Plant Spirit Summit – May 23-29, 2022 – where I’ll be a panelist on the subject of Integration and How to be an Integration Provider that’s Safe, Qualified, and Good. This panel is scheduled for 12:00 PM on Tuesday, May 24th.
Join me and 90+ experts and community leaders in a series of bold, inquisitive conversations about the expansion of plant medicines and what we, as a community, can and need to do in order to ensure equity and inclusion for all…
The Plant Spirit Summit, led by Lorna Liana, CEO of EntheoNation, Host of the Plant Spirit Summit & Founder of the Plant Spirit School, is a community-oriented event that celebrates ancestral wisdom and indigenous perspectives while exploring the complexities, nuances, and challenges arising from the mainstreaming of psychedelics.
This event promises to be a lively and educational resource for all things related to Plant Medicine and will address many hot topics including:
Can psychedelics heal the world? Or is the promise of a world made better through the widespread use of psychedelics… merely a grand delusion?
Will psychedelic medicine end up under the control of Big Pharma and venture capitalists? Or will decriminalization ensure that psychedelic healing remains accessible to all?
If you’re curious about plant medicine or looking for support in integrating your personal experiences, please reach out to schedule a free consultation with me, and we can explore how I can best support you on your path of healing and transformation.
The word Maybe is on my mind. I find it a rather useless word. If you don’t have a clear yes or clear no then be brave enough to be honest and say – I don’t know or I need more time or can I get back to you by x date.
In a partnership or friendship or any important relationship – when someone keeps saying “maybe I’ll do x” or “maybe we can x” or “maybe in the future we will x” etc – my advice is call them on it.
In my experience – maybe is a tease, it gives false hope, it creates a way out without accountability and leads to disappointment. I find myself saying it out of habit – knowing that is an easy cop out. I’m watching my maybes and replacing with clear and honest responses.
When someone says maybe and you feel dismissed – speak up and ask for a clear response. Ask their intension. If they have a pattern of refusing or dancing around it – I would walk away and I have – just not a maybe kind if girl. Maybe may be slang for May it Be? Way different meaning. So many ways to use words – no maybe about it. Onward.